Hurt

Every now and then,
When I show you a picture.
And I told you, "Pray that I won't be like this later".
You told me, "It's still too early to say that,"

Is it too hard, for you to say "If god's willing,"
Is it too hard, for you to say "Amin,"
Is it too hard, for you to belief in me?
Is it too hard, for you to put your trust on me?

Because when I show you the picture,
I'm trying to tell you, "You are important to me, and I really hope I'll be the best for you,"
I'm trying to tell you, that I don't want to be the same as the others,
I'm trying to tell you, that I'm looking way further for this relationship with you,
I'm trying to tell you, that I want to be serious in this relationship, and all those things will never happen, to any of us.

But what you say?
"It's still too early to say something like that,"
What do you think I heard?
"I don't trust you will even try to stay for as long as you can with me,"
And what you do after?
You try to repeal that I'm trying my best for you,
You try to repeal that I want to be serious,
You try to repeal that I really meant to be staying with you.

Actually. Let me rephrase that a little bit.
"You try to repeal that I really meant to be staying with YOU."

And then you post something,
"If they're hurting you, means they are hurt too,"
Don't remind me that I hurt you,
Because I know I accidentally or not, did that quite a number,
But if you're afraid that you hurt me, you did.

When?
When you didn't put your trust on me.
When you keep doubting me.
When you keep feeling insecure about things you don't need to.
When you told me of feeling to run away.

You made me feel like I was nothing.
Even when I kept reminding you, you always did the same.
But when I kept reminding you, that I want you to be my last, did you actually listen?
Did you actually cared, if I was serious?
Did you actually cared, if I meant it?
Did you actually cared, if everything I ever did just to prove you that you meant a lot?

That's when I felt hurt.
When almost like all time you compared me, and equate me, with THEM.

Can't you just belief me? Put your trust on me. Pray for my success. Because I did for none other than us.